Towards the end of 2019, I decided that I wanted to take up meditation again.
I’ve flirted with the practice, sometimes feeling committed to it, other times seeing it as a struggle, or a chore. But, it’s something that I have, ultimately, always thought is good for me.
I signed up to Calm because it helps me to track my progress, to keep on top of when, how and for how long I am meditating. I enjoyed the idea of being held accountable, not just doing meditation when it suited me. In reality, meditation is probably most important when you really don’t want to do it.
With this in mind, I decided to set myself a challenge – could I meditate for 100 days straight? This seemed like an enormous task to start with, but I am a very stubborn person. If I want to do something, or want to prove that I can do something, I’ll make it happen.
So, although the hundred days lying ahead of me seemed unfathomable, I was ready to see if I could do it. I started on the 6th January, after returning home from my birthday trip to Dublin. It’s slightly annoying that I didn’t just begin on the 1st January – but that’s not the point of this goal. On the 14th April, I hit my 100 day mark of consistent, daily meditation practice.
Some days I could offer myself 2 minutes, other days it was 10. I’ve done multiple practices during the day (albeit not frequently). I meditated in bed, lying on the ground, stood outside, even in a bar. I have found, or created space, wherever I have needed it, to take a few minutes to find my breath, to find quiet.
I initially started the challenge to make sure that I actually stuck to regular meditation, not just picking it up here and there throughout the weeks and months. But now, I have found meditation is one of the smallest daily routines that I can allow myself, that can have a much bigger impact on my day-to-day life.
I can’t say I always enjoy meditating. I find it very difficult to create quiet in mind, and constantly have to refocus – even during the couple of minutes I am practising. But that’s part of the point, I’m trying to teach myself that it doesn’t matter how many times I have to bring myself back. I keep telling myself that meditation is just like the workout that I give my body, just this time it’s for my mind.
Of course. there are days when it feels wonderful. It’s quiet. It’s calm. It’s soothing. It allows me the opportunity to change my pattern of thinking, so that I can face the day with more positivity and energy.
Although this challenge may now be complete, I see meditaiton as just a part of my daily routine – and one that I would like to keep. I’m going to keep going with the practice, and hopefully see meditation become a reliable constant througout the rest of my year.
Do you meditate? How do you like to meditate?
I know my brother prefers sitting and creating time for longer sessions, whereas I see more benefit from shorter, daily sessions. It’s interesting to hear how different people use the practice for different reasons. Let me know your thoughts in the comments!